New Eyes and the Traveler
Always a goofball.
Always seven years older than me.
And he always treated me as equal.
My brother had a way with dramatic humor and pungent exaggeration, and he said the most random things out of the blue that made you frown in confusion and at the same time suppress your laughter for a second and then start cracking up.
But the way he rolled with his character was so awesomely gnarly.
He portrayed a deep inner belief that leaders never seek to lead,
but to only lead naturally by example.
He was always stronger, always faster, always cooler,
and he always had way cooler stuff.
He had everything I desperately desired and more growing up.
Every quality, every toy.
Well, big-boy toys, at least, like awesome-looking intense proficiency yo-yos were big boy toys to me back then.
He could do everything that I wanted to do, be everything I wanted to be.
I never saw him much but when I did it was precious to me to have such an awesome older brother.
Amazingly, he always treated me like I was just as good as he was.
I never had much I thought he could benefit from,
his inspiration seemed impossible to pay back.
But little did I know it wasn’t in what objects I had that created our mutuality,
it was in my youthful spirit and child wonder at how cool he was that together we shaped one another’s character in ways that carried no rank, no seniority, and was irrelevant to power.
See, entrepreneurs have a 5-step rule list to success, with number one being formulated as, “Focus on the message, not the messenger.” I believe that is key, and the wonderful thing about children and youth is that they are open with wonder not closed by belief. They fall quickly into fantasy, which is the start of questioning the impossible to amount to great things.
As a child. I was able to remind my older brother of this and he was able to apply that wonder even at his age.
As a child, you do not have any care for power, rank, status, etc. unless you try to be a part of the adult world.
Adult occupations seem confusing on the surface, so children get met with a “shake your head, wait till you get there” mirror. It is nerve-racking to think about those things, so children often choose the ones they think would be fun and adventurous, like being a policeman, firefighter, professional sports player, or a job that involves something fun like driving a car, or a construction vehicle.
Children want to make a difference, go on adventures, and maybe the closest thing that encapsulates all of that is embedded in superheroes or spy agents.
Something complicated, but not so complicated that your little mind couldn’t grasp as much of the idea as you wanted it to.
A fantasy worth fantasizing.
Like if it was real, you would so do it, but the world is still so complicated.
When you open a door to let in knowledge, wisdom, inspiration, your reality is ever shifting like sands billowing around on a high windy day on the beach, or like looking through the smoke of a campfire.
But opening your doors, you never know what may come inside. For it leaves us in a vulnerable state. However, wisdom is the source that acts as the neurological filter to the newest operations that the world abides by today.
Once we let go of the way we were raised with the fear of punishment and learn to focus on what we learned rather than what we will get hurt by, we open up ways of wisdom and learn and see the benefit we can give others by positivity actions.
Children are vulnerable. When we were younger, we all were growing up, looking up to the world above us.
But I have found that the greatest benefit is not in looking up or down; for rank and status is then championed rather than character, but in looking all around.
For at 21 years of age my little brother, who’s 11 years old, taught me a valuable lesson to help someone like me, who’s a full decade older take care of myself.
“You are like a phone, if you don’t charge yourself fully at night you run on the day at 15%. You want to be at 100% at the beginning.”
He goes to bed when he needs to. No one actually tells him when to go to sleep. We advise him sometimes if he’s up late, but he actually learned to do it on his own without any real hard-edged guidance. He’s doing better than me, still. Wow, I think. I have a lot to learn. What we know is limited, what we can learn in limitless, and this can introduce us to a positive, fluid, and ever-shifting view of reality.
About the Author:
Zee was born in Northampton, Massachusetts and has traveled up and down the East Coast and lived in various other states. He excelled often in English language arts and creative arts. Zee has performed for RETN News and was elected to present the closing speech at his 2014 graduation from CVU high school. He currently resides in New York City, exploring, challenging, and serving himself and the world around him in unique ways as he journeys to find opportunities to utilize his creative sense of great work, as a singer, rapper, dancer, poet, storyteller, and athlete.
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